praying... while my mind is totally somewhere else!

I have been having the most impossible time trying to focus lately. If its not something I need to do, then it's someone that needs me... If it's not packing and trying to sort out my life, then it was graduation and the last week of school .... I have been sleeping in, and staying up late... I feel overwhelmed and just want to stay in bed forever!

The worst part is that this lack of focus is affecting my time before the Lord... last time I opened my heart before the LORD? O crap...

And I can feel it. Its strange but I know the more connect and open I am with the LORD the more fulfilled and self assure I feel. So day when I was annoyed with things and felt like a fat blob... I knew my heart was disattached from what it needed...

So did I stop and sit before the LORD in my self disguest, to receieve his LOVE , JOy and reminder of my worth.... no of course not... that would be too easy.

Now its getting late and all I want to do is curl up in my "Father's" arms and connect to him... but I'll probably fall asleep...

I hate feeling so distracted and so detached ....