misquote: it makes all the difference sometimes

In the human, more recent, version of Peter Pan, there is a line at the end where Peter says to Captain hook? Right before he "almost" gets killed, "Death is just the beginning of a Big adventure." (something like that!) But for the last hour or so I have been remember him saying in reference to Wendy "growing up" ( an maybe he did I'm fuzzy at the moment)..... like " Growing up is the beginning of a Big Adventure."

Anyways the point is this "misquote" has been in my head and I feel excited inside. I spent all day with high schoolers and yesterday... and just had so much fun! ( as always) and I came home feeling like " I never want to get old, I want to be Peter Pant"... which is why mind started thinking about the movie which lead to my misquote . But I realized with my "misquote," I am excited about "growing up", that it will be a big adventure and I'm really excited about it!

I know I know I am an adult! " You're 28", the little voice in my head yells- dummy. But I don't feel like I'm an adult, I don't act like an adult most of the time, and regardless of what I tell myself I don't dress like an adult... I don't dress like a high schooler... but a college student is best in comparison. And its not even really about that its my thinking... I don't think about the future the way other 28 year olds do.... Which I'm ok with, but I know it needs to change.

I feel like a kid when I'm in a room of adults. I can hold good conversations and can make a dull uninteresting person have a "delightful" conversation with me ( its a gifts I know!) But threw it all I am DYING to leave, I get so tired of adults, I get bored with them...

I haven't hung out with an adult for like a week b/c I was working on my papers for YL at nite and would be at school during the day hanging out with kids... then tonite I had an adult friend over for dinner. She's 25 and while super fun and awesome, shes still an adult. I felt like I talked her hear off, I felt bad... but at least I cooked! ha ha As she left I was thinking to myself " why did u just talk her ear off so much?" And I realized it was b/c I hadn't been with any adults lately! It was a strange realization. In my normal like I see my adult friends on a regular enough basis that I don't feel this unbalance. But tonite I was like WOHO. I want to grow up one day, I want to be "that women", that when she walks into a room you a drawn to her. Not because she's loud, or is dressed in a bold way. Rather that she carries her self in such a way that says, "This is me. I'm safe. I am am full of understanding , grace and wisdom." Thats the kind of WOMEN I want to be, but I know I will have to "grow- up" to be her... Its a BIG Adventure that awaits me.... and I'm excited ....