I have been feeling really off this week. scattered, tired... I thought for a moment today maybe I'm depressed? But I've had situation depression before and it feels NOTHING like this... So I was telling my friend Mar about it, and she was like " its ur mind getting ready to go home." I was like " O". So I came home made lists of things I needed to do and started to pack a bag.. and WOW just like that I felt better, calmer, more "together". Its seems my brain felt all over the place and just needed some order! I'm still tired.. I think that has to do with "running" hard with YL and stoney being sick off and on, me having been sick and other stressful things that are now done. Its like the tiredness is just catching up with me. I try and out run it... but it always catches me before I get out of bed this week.... once up and going and don't stop till 11pm or 12am... but in the morning it says " stay, lay your head back down, rest..." I have listened to it twice this week and found myself getting up around 9 and 945am! I keep telling my self I will rest in Jan... haha As excited as I am to visit home, I know it will be (as always) a rush of people, places and things to do. I will come back to TZ tired, but needing to rev up!
Even as I write this I feel tired. Taking a day of solitude on sunday ... after church... hopefully that will help.
The two weeks and 2 days till I fly out, seem like such LONG daunting days... but i know it will go by fast and my lists that I made today will barely get done! O dear here we go...
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